Summer Dreams (Ripped at the seams)

We stand at the brink of the abyss my children.
In just a few days school shall be over, and I will have 3 months to wile away the hours and confer with the flowers.
Maybe even consult with the rain, but probably not.
I have absolutely no idea what to do this summer, except watch Noah, which I'm most likely not going to be paid for.
I want to be with my friends, but I have a feeling they're going to be more preoccupied than usual.
I don't know where to get a job, if I can even get one.
There are plenty of places, but there are a lot of other things to think about.
Hours, pay...
I'm talking with Ela right now.
She was up in the boundary waters with Lotus all weekend, and Facebook confirms that she had fun.
The only problem with Ela is that after you hang out for a while she feels that she needs to stay away for a while so as not to put strain on the friendship.
Weird people.
I took my first real allergy pill this weekend.
Knocked me out for 15 hours straight, and I woke up feeling great.
I hate it when you get the summer cold, its so gross...
Then the next day I went to Highland and hung out with Parox, ate Leeann Chin (not real Chinese food, but still good)and spent an hour walking around Patina.
Then we went back to my house and I made her watch the Notebook, and she didn't understand why everyone crys.
The next day, nothing really happened.
Today, I baked a cake and ran on the treadmill, all the while thinking of the story I'm writing for Lotus's party.
For our next Pod Party (the Pod is our group) our 'Diplomats' have decided that we should all write stories to read aloud at the party.
Sigh...
As I have mentioned before, I DO NOT want to work to go to a party.
It puts on strain.
But I'm doing it anyway.
I'll do it right now.
Bye.

Beatles: It's getting better all the time,I used to get mad at my school (No, I can't complain)The teachers who taught me weren't cool( No, I can't complain)You're holding me down (Oh Oh)Turning me round(Oh Oh)Filling me up with your rules(Oooh)

Hi Ho

Well, it is a day of mourning my children.
My old self has gone...
And the new technology crazed '2001 a Space Odyssey' me has arrived.
I now have, regrettably, a facebook.
I'm not proud of it.
I don't know how it happened. My Mom signed into her account to show me something and it just happened...
Only I have no camera, so I don't, in hindsight, seethe point of having one.
Besides having a new way to talk to my friends a little faster.
Like how I've been talking to Enigma for an hour now.
And school is not helping with all my stress. I have yet more finals to take this week, and a dress for finale to find, which will be an odyssey in itself.
I like to go shopping, but it does shit for my self confidence. I'll walk in and be ready for a nice fun trip to the store, then, out of the blue, I'll have gone up a few sizes and catch a glimpse of my butt in a mirror; subsequently causing me to burst out into tears on the car ride back.
Yeah.
Luckily, Finale should work out because Parox can most likely come with and guard me against the wave of bullshit that will most likely flood the place, as the Se7en Dwarfs shall be present.
I really CANNOT stand them, they're really like the girls from Mean Girls only worse because they're real.
So its best if she doesn't know.
I think D is going, and MADi (its like MADtv...get it?) and I know GuitarHero and Ravyn are going together, so it should hopefully be a good environment.
I've decided we won't go to the dinner, because if we do it'll cost $40 each, but if we just go to the dance it will only be $25 each, which is way better, don't you think?
I think.
I'm also out.
Seeya.

Beatles: I love you, 'cause you tell me things I want to know. And its true that it only goes to show, that I know, that I should never ever ever be blue.

Cherry Bomb

Well, my parents are off at Buzz's' baseball game, which I declined to go to because I see no point. I instead chose to stay here and make myself endure physical hell.
20 minutes with the treadmill on Aerobic.
Which, when you have my body, is not good.
Luckily, I had Suzi Quatro, the soundtrack of Rent, Joan Jett, and the Runaways, to help me through it.
God, I love music today.
Anyways, the end of the year is only a few weeks away and my grades are so far improving.
If they were a word it would be FABAACAA.
The F isn't staying for long though, which is good.
Now the only thing to worry about is Finale.
Finale is the dance at the end of the year which is LIKE prom, but every grade is allowed to go. Everyone is talking about it, and its getting very annoying, especially since we just got a letter in the mail with all the guidelines and dress code and all that, so now OF COURSE my mom wants me to go.
One little catch.
Apparently the big thing nowadays is for guys and gals to have dates for dances, and that's never been my talent. Its so awkward to ask someone to go and act like an idiot with you.
And let me make this clear, I DO NOT want to WORK to go to a party, okay? I just want some chips and dip.
Its like a costume party.
But Riddles is going without a date and I think Panda is too, so its a little comforting.
I'd like to ask Parox or Ela to come with me and be my comfort blanket, but that too is a problem.
I don't want the one that can't come to feel left out, but I'm also trying to make it as equal as possible.
Although now that I've typed this neither will be able to go, but it was worth a try.
My parents will be home soon, so I'm going to fit in one more mosh pitting session to 'Cherry Bomb'.
Buh bye.

Beatles: To lead a better life I need my love to be here... Here, making each day of the year, changing my life with a wave of her hand. Nobody can deny that there's something there.

Tiny Little Internet Drama Part II

Well well well...
Guess who's back everyone?
I haven't been on Parox's website much in the past month so I decided to check in today, and that was when the news hit me square in the face, causing me to bleed profusely and punch it back.
I signed in, and looked at the chat, where a message from an old friend waited:
Blackjack: hi
Well, it looks like the hat is on the other foot now!
Some of you may remember how back in February Blackjack vowed to never come back "EVER NEVER EVER!" and with that she disappeared for months.
I admit, I didn't think she would make it this long, but still, she could have made it a bit longer I think.
The other part was that her cronies (Chloe and Buttercup) said they wouldn't be back either, but they were back 48 hours after they ran off.
So its impressive that she made it this long.
But it does breed the question: if she made it this long, why is she back?
I have several theories about this.
1) Her website (which is frankly kinda lame) is failing.
2)I hear she just went through a breakup, so maybe she feels the need for some nostalgic hate from half the site.
3)She just plain caved.
I personally have no idea why she would come back to a site where she has two friends, and only a few people who are nice to her so she'll stop talking IN CAPS LOCK, and where everyone else is just openly mean to her.
Its a mystery, but I suppose we'll need her to stick around long enough to find out, won't we?
Yes we will.
In which case, seeya later.
I know the posts are short, back off.

Beatles: If I fell in love with you, would you promise to be true, and help me understand? Cuz I've been in love before, and I found that love was more than just holding hands.

Bus Stop

There hasn't been much to talk about lately.
Luckily for you I had an experience on the bus today that I've been thinking over for quite some time.
On the bus today I was sitting with The Trumpet, D, Maanda, Soapy, and HWAF (Hits with a fist).
All was going well until HWAF started in on Panda.
"Shes such a bitch, freshman bitch, she thinks shes smart and everyone else is dumb".
I could tell D was feeling awkward because he and Panda are close.
I started to feel it after HWAF started in on a girl in my track, called Sleepy.
"I was walking in the hallway today, having a really intense conversation with my friend and she just comes in the middle of us, and she BUMPS me. Then she's all like "Sorry", and I'm like "Watch where the fuck you're going" and she says "So-ree" and my friend is like "She can't help it, look at how BIG her ASS is!" and I say "Thats mean", but she's still a bitch."
That was when I started feeling awkward.
Just wanted to tell you that.

Beatles: Nananananana nananana Hey Jude

The United States of Tara

Ladies and Jellybeans, we've been cleared for takeoff.
We'll arrive at the end of Spring Break in exactly one week.
There's nothing scheduled yet, but I'm thinking of going to a play that has some people I know in it tomorrow night.
Hopefully Parox can come but I keep forgetting that she never answers texts and her phone can't pick up calls....
Its all quite tragic really.
But I plow on.
Last night after I had realized my craving for tea, I realized I really DID need to find something interesting to watch.
And that's how I found my temporary favorite show (Psych is on break).
This show is the United States of Tara.
Its like Sybil, minus 13 personalities.
Its wonderful, I can now understand how Toni Collette won those awards, she's wonderful, and I insist you sit in front of your T.V and wait for it to come on.
I don't care how long it takes.
Just do it.
Now I've lost my train of thought because I've been sitting her watching Edgeplay for 22 minutes...
Good movies so far.
Seeya later.

Beatles: Got a good reason for taking the easy way out, Got a good reason for taking the easy way out - now, She was a day tripper, One way ticket, yeh, It took me so long to find out, and I found out.

Wait Until Dark

Well, these have just been the two days outta hell...
Yesterday wasn't actually that bad, until I got home.
We had boring classes, but our teacher Mr. Deranged-y called me smarter than our old friend Sandy, which brightened my spirits increasingly. Afterwards we had the most boring day of Algebra in history, because all we did was go over our work.
After we had Biology, where we watched an episode of the amazing Meercat Manor.
Which everyone liked weirdly...
Then I come home and start work on my two projects, which was an Our Town image book (make our own production of Our Town) and the Rough Draft of my Swiss Reformation project.
It was all going swimmingly.
Our Town was finished up, and two hours after that Swiss Reform was finished. I was happy until I went into my email and tried to email my report to myself.
And that was when the fit hit the shan.
Because for whatever reason, everything I wrote was gone.
Well, crap.
Needless to say, I had a complete mental breakdown.
I stayed up a few extra hours doing Algebra and having insomnia, and so in the morning I didn't feel good at all.
I was overly tired and I was still depressed from the breakdown and my fear of going into class without the paper.
And that brings us to this morning.
I didn't go to school, and instead I stayed home and re-wrote my paper, got caught up on my World History notes, and tried to find some monologues for juries in a few months.
I went on a walk with my dad and wore green (St. Patrick's Day) and enjoyed the nice weather.
Then Dad went out and I went to the park for a while, and by the time I got back Mom was home.
A few hours later I was downstairs watching Wait Until Dark, which is an Audrey Hepburn movie that I've wanted to see for quite a while.
Now I'm done, and I'm going to see the end of this movie.
Bye.

Beatles: Ooo I need your love, babe guess you know it's true Hope you need my love babe just like I need you